It was at this point that life hit me hard every job announcement out there required a degree of sort which I had none of. Experience yes, but not a degree which majority of Human Resource look for. I did a couple courses off and on through the years but never anything serious enough to acquire a degree, but in 2014 I really buckled down and hit the books hard, I should have my Associates in the spring time frame of 2015 in General Studies. I was hard charging always placing my peers and subordinates welfare above my own. Thinking that I would never leave the military service, based on the fact that I was a lifer.
I just want to live my life without this feeling. It makes me feel frozen like I cant do anything. Im afraid that when the time comes when I need to act, I cant because this feeling is always in the back of my head. Its like a devil trying to make me fail at what I need to do, I feel like it ants me to screw up. I am always waiting for it to try and drag me down.
Lonely Nights Nobody ever understands what it’s like until it happens to them. The day I dreaded had finally arrived. I held his hand tight, holding back the tears as we approached the gate. The anxiety built up as the question lingered throughout my thoughts. “When will you be coming back home..?” I hesitantly asked.
His aunt and the congregation want him to go up and get saved, be obedient and step up to the pulpit. What is the meaning of being “saved” in a young Langston mind? He state’s “So I decided that maybe to save further trouble, I’d better lie, too, and say that Jesus Had come, and get up and be saved”. (198) Can we say that young Langston, at this moment, over looks his own beliefs, so he can meet the expectations of the congregation. Langston loses his faith because of how Auntie Reed tells him that “when you were saved you saw a light, and something happened to you inside” (197).
I never caught a break. I contemplated suicide many times. I would have been completely fine with taking my own life, but how selfish would that have been of me? My family is the most important thing in the world to me, and I would never put them through something like that. I tolerated the bulling every day until one day, in my senior year, Dick didn't show up to school for a whole week.
|Ellen, has been attaining the thoughts of ending her life, this has gone on for over a month so she could be diagnosed with a major | |depressive episode, DSM-IV-TR. These thoughts are consuming her days, to the point she is not eating our sleeping. She has no desire for| |any normal daily activities outside of work, which she is slowly losing interest in. She is having reoccurring thoughts of not only | |killing herself but also of how she can complete this task. At this point in time she sees no hope for change are no reason to live.
It is a big help and a great stress reliever. I cannot preach to my congregation anymore. The one thing I look forward to every week is being taken away from me. Although I would love to keep doing my job and helping the people of my town find God, I do not want to spread this disease to any of my loved
That void in my life is no longer there once I finish that book; the book has given me a concrete story to hold on to and understand and remember forever. On the other hand, there are so many aspects of our lives that are uncertain and not there forever. A recent friend’s brother suddenly and unexpectedly passed away, making me realize that my own sister could be gone in an instant if she is not careful. Although I know that if she were to pass away a huge part of my life and heart would die with her, my identity would be the same. Her passing would shape my identity, just as her life has, but in no way is she a percentage of my identity.
We had already worried to much that day at the beach. First, I worried about what Lonnie looked like because of his beard. Then I was worried that the “rocks” weren’t going to be cool and that I wasted all that time just to see rocks. Then, while my dad and I were swimming, my step mom worried about where we were and if we were ok when deep down she knew we were ok. I went over all these worries as we said goodbye to Lonnie and started heading home to our Hawaii
My greatest fears have now become reality. What was I to do? How was I going to explain this to his mother and sister; once again I had not the slightest of clues on how to fix my present issue. I believe more often than not we as individuals maintain a false sense of the realities we will face as we walk out our life’s journey. By doing so we are failing to prepare ourselves for the constant struggles that will reveal themselves throughout our life.