I also knew that if I didn't make it, it would have broken my little heart and I would be letting a lot of people down who were expecting me to breeze right through it. During conditioning we had an open gym session which is where we pick up a team and play against each other for a certain amount of time. The coach was watching so everybody felt that they had something to prove including myself. I was having a bad day basketball wise. My chance to show our coach that I have what it takes didn't go so well.
Have you ever wondered what basketball is like? Basketball can vary from being very intense and physical, while other time it is very easy. Basketball is a very exhausting sport. You can feel your muscles being pulled in every direction. You feel like you can't move when the season first starts.
With this pregnancy, the dad didn’t know about it, and I knew he wouldn’t help me because he has two girls that he doesn’t see or support. Adoption was the best thing I could think of. I knew it would be the hardest decision ever in my life. I wanted the baby to go with a family that couldn’t have kids. I knew I couldn’t care for the baby like I wanted to.
Basketball is usually played indoors, but it does not need to be. Each team tries to score by shooting the ball through the other team goal at each end of the court, above their heads. The goal is a round hoop and net called a basketball. The team scoring the most wins the game. I am a Lakers fan; it was a championship game between Lakers (Kobe Bryant) and Miami (Lebron James) on 31 Jan 2011.
This was a very dark time in my life and a young child should never have to go through this. I used to blame myself for my parents getting a divorce. As I got older and could understand that a family should be a mom, a dad, and children, I realized something was wrong with my family. My dad was not in the picture and my mom and him were constantly fighting. For some reason I thought since I was the last one born it was my fault.
From that day on, I have played basketball. It was my first sport and is still my favorite sport to this day. My knowledge from basketball has come from three different aspects; me playing basketball, me watching basketball, and me getting cut from my high school basketball team. Actually playing basketball probably presents the most obvious case of where and how I have obtained personal knowledge and development. I have spent many hours on basketball courts shooting, dribbling, and playing, whether by myself, with a friend, or with a whole team.
All I know is that it is a situation I will never allow myself to be in ever again. Subjective well-being is defined as an individuals’ global judgments of their own life satisfaction. (Diener, Lucas, & Oishi, 2002) At that time of my life, my happiness was gone and my satisfaction with life was gone too. Being in a relationship with a person who is supposed to love you, but constantly puts you down and beats you if you don’t do everything he wants is not good for anyone’s well-being. I was constantly hoping someone would see the pain I was going through and stop the abuse, but that never happened.
Having financial problems played a factor also in my returning to school. Being a single parent, with no support, I knew that I had to make some drastic changes. I have to joggle so many tasks each day and it can be hard. My family motivates me not to give up on my academic goals because I know it is something I have to do. Additionally, having a better income to support me and my family would be nice.
But a kid shy as I was could fade into the background, unnoticed. Up until the 8th grade, no one saw me as me: A kid who was very caring, organized, and loved playing sports. I was angry, and I was tired. Being shy was mentally and physically exhausting, and I was finally sick of it. All I wanted was to fit in better.
I was born in a era where men wore tights and the basketball heroes were the legendary Larry Bird, and the indefatigable duo of Magic Johnson and Kareem Abdul Jabbar. It was the era of showtime where the rivalry between the Boston Celtics and the Los Angeles Lakers was in full swing. Basketball always excites me. It was my first love. I can remember having to try out countless of times for our high school varsity team, but I was always told to sit in the stands because I was too small.