Fear Is a Destructive Beast

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Fear Is a Destructive Beast Throughout the course of my life I have been the victim of some level of fear. Fear of failure, the fear of ridicule, and the fear of disappointment. There have been many things that I have wanted to try in life, but rejected because of fear. However, on the other hand, there were things that I wanted to prevent from happening because of the fear of the consequences. For example, when I was a kid I gave up “tighty whites,” for boxers because even though they got the job done they weren’t labeled as cool during the time. Now, thinking in hindsight, was actually very silly considering no one could actually see them but at the time that fear made it all so important. During this fear, I dodged the ridicule but this type of fear that averted me from trying things or things that didn’t make me fit in. To describe this feeling, I think of a flower that only blossoms when obscured by the shadows of the night. This is because when I don’t live up to expectations, people don’t see me in the light that I would like them to. When people are disappointed in me then I break down because I am not used to being the one that looks down upon; however, this is why I try not only to reach, but surpass the frame that everyone puts up for me. It is like the parent that takes three extra jobs around the holidays to afford Christmas presents for their children, because they are afraid of the disappointment of their kids. Then there is probably the most important fear of all, the fear of failure. One example of this in my personal experience was in my freshman year of high school when I received my first D on my report card, and it didn’t come alone it had a twin. The realization that I even came close to failing was enough to scare me, but that wasn’t all, I also received a ton of speeches on how school was too important (of course it is
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