My mom worked for the local hospital and got stuck at work the night Hurricane Bonnie decided to knock at our door. Imagine that. So we had to call in back up. Well really just our neighbors, that happened to be my mom’s sister. She was all of a buck fifteen not counting her hair, that was a whole new story.
She ended up telling my grandma she was pregnant, who was very upset about it, and eventually my grandpa found out. He was so 38 disappointed that he kicked my mom out of the house. She moved in with my dad, thinking things were going to be good now that her family was together, but little did she know that the next five months were going to be terrible. My dad was the total opposite of what she
Into my room. And that was when I was forced to see that I wasn’t going to come back. That I was alone in the place ‘in-between’ heaven and hell. Because I stared at my room. It had remained untouched since I had left it- the bed still unmade and that pizza box still on the edge of that shelf (you know the one that we had fought each other for the last piece of before the game)- and… My mother was kneeling at the edge of my bed- crying.
My friend lifted up her shirt, showed her a bright red (not pink) belly, and told her mother she had been calling and informing the doctor's office for days. They simply told her it was normal to have pain, not to worry, and they could not fit her in for an appointment until the following week. From the site of my friends stomach, her mother rushed her to the emergency room in horror. What my friend had was a horrible disease called necrotizing fasciitis and it had spread through parts of her body like wild fire. So I began investigating and found that she was not the only one.
I just wish I could die it hurts so much can you please help me.” I picked his head up and laid it on my lap and played with his hair until he fell asleep finally. He laid there crying in his sleep and moving around because he was in so much pain. I had thoughts going through my mind at that moment of going into the kitchen and giving him the whole bottle of pain medication to stop his pain once and for all. I called the hospice nurse into the room and begged her to help him and she said she couldn’t. My baby brother died an excruciating death at the age of 21on April 4, 2006 as he laid his head in my lap.
I opened the door to see him tossing and turning in his sleep, but upon entering he woke with a tear jerking scream and ran away. I was alone once again. ‘My’ heart felt like it had been crushed into a million pieces. I could trust and love no one and so like the wind I swiftly moved out of the house for I did not want to stay there with Victor, and then I was alone in the world having to look after myself
It was after one in the morning and I could barely keep my eyes open. I wanted to spend all night with her, but I just could not do it. My body was used to going to bed between eight and nine at night, and here it was after one in the morning. Aubrey slept in my arms with her head somewhat on my chest. It felt so good to hold her little body in my
It would take three to five days before I could return to school. In those days I felt like a hostage in my house. It was like my mom was running a hostel with my friends coming over to see me. My mother also called me inhospitable after one day I woke up cranky. I went back to school that next Monday.
I couldn’t stand it anymore. I walked home; crying in bed until I fell asleep. The next day, everyone kept staring. They didn’t say a word. There were no ‘I’m sorry for your loss’.
From 2009 to present, this addiction has been following me wherever my presence is called. My gagging problem now has gotten so bad, to the point where even walking in the grocery store is unmanageable. Whenever I’m around a bunch of people, is when it really starts to act up. During this past summer, before school started, my situation had gotten even worse, to where falling into a deep depression had occurred. This resulted me laying in bed for long periods of time, and just being so afraid that even going outside would be catastrophic to me, because no matter wherever I’m at, I always had to have a cough drop in my mouth, or else it would result in me gag all over the place.