He hated himself. He had loved Martha more than his men, and as a consequence Lavender was now dead, and this was something he would have to carry like a stone in his stomach for the rest of the war” (103). Cross was ashamed; he is a leader and was not there for his soldiers. Now he has the burden for a soldier that died at his hands. The last personality trait that First Lieutenant Jimmy Cross demonstrates is bravery.
Lieutenant Cross knows that it was because of his carelessness, that Ted Lavender was dead. This is shown on page 346, when O’Brien writes, “He felt shame. He hated himself. He had loved Martha more than his men, and as a consequence, Lavender was now dead, and this was something he would have to carry like a stone
When his soldier Ted Lavender died all he could do was cry and blame himself for his death, “He felt shame. He hated himself.... this was something he would have to carry like a stone in his stomach for the rest of war.” (O’Brien, The Things They Carried 42) but he didn’t let that very heart-wrenching emotion of feeling responsible for someone’s death cloud his judgment or cause him to take his job lightly. Towards the end of the story he stepped up, over-coming the guilt he felt after the death of Ted Lavender. Learning from his mistakes and changing the way he lead his platoon “He would not tolerate laxity. He would show strength, distancing himself.” (O’Brien, The Things They Carried 100) He showed courage while seeing the bigger picture telling himself “that his obligation was not to be loved but to lead.” (O’Brien, The Things They Carried 101) Masculinity is very apparent in this platoon.
Until Fleming returns to battle with is fellow soldiers, he feels isolated. When he begins to fight alongside his friends, for a purpose he loses the feeling of being isolated. There were a few problems with The Red Badge of Courage. The dialect of the soldiers was very hard to understand. Also in the dialogue they used old terms that aren’t used today, such as hellwhoop which means at great speeds.
He was very immature and felt that conquering other people through battle would prove his manhood. His motive was not to fight for an important cause but to reach his own personal fame (Smith, Joyce. "Coming of age in The Red Badge of Courage."). This really pointed out the sense of childishness that was still very much a part of him even though he was a member of the army. Throughout his time in the army the foolish ideas he had about being a serviceman were mostly dominated by boredom.
Friendly to everyone but wasn’t very close to any of the other men. It was clear that being a platoon leader was too much for him. He tried to act confident and sure, but as later seen the real soldier falls. After Lavender’s death, Jimmy Cross couldn’t live with the fact that he had brought his soldiers to danger. He felt quilt and shame.
Henry had joined the military to earn a name amongst other men. Instead he would flee from a battle and cause his own injury. When Henry returned to camp and lied about the nature of his wound, he highly doubted neither his manhood nor his right to behave as pompously as a veteran. Henry’s lack of a true moral sense manifested itself in the emptiness of the honor and glory that he seeks. A great change occurs within him as he fought, he lost his sense of self.
But I hadn’t turned out like him. (3) | Heartbroken- He thinks his father hates him and it makes it hard for him to do anything because he always looks for his approval and he can’t stop what he things because he had no control over what happen to his mother. | I was going to win, and I was going to run that last kite. Then I’d bring it home and show it to Baba. Show him once and for all that his son was worthy.