Lawrence King: Why Did I Hate Myself?

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This has been a topic that I’ve constantly wrestled with for a while. I have a lot of effeminate tendencies about myself. That’s something that I wasn’t able to admit to myself for a long time. I didn’t like the fact that people already associated effeminacy with homosexuality, and I didn’t want to be looked upon like a stereotype. I also think that the thing that made me hate my feminine characteristics were the fact that, it was those very qualities about myself, that subjected me to physical and verbal abused by the people I had to go to school with…everyday…since I was 6! After awhile, when I decided that I would finally become comfortable in the skin I’m in; I began to grow to love the person that I am, and work on making others love…show more content…
If they dealt with being isolated by other boys because they didn’t feel comfortable around you. If they dealt with being jumped. And being called a faggot. And wanting to commit suicide. Maybe they would understand how strong we really are. Lawrence King was 13 years old, and didn’t give a fuck what others thought. If he wanted to wear makeup he’d wear makeup…and he was killed for it. He’s a real man. He stood for who he was, and he’s one of my heroes today. It enrages me to know that the fact that I’m a good person, talented, devoted, skilled, intelligent, supportive, and fucking gorgeous is completely overlooked. And I’m drained of all that I’ve faught to gain…and I’m robbed of my manhood…and denied someone to love. Fuck Masculinity. Be a Man. This has been a topic that I’ve constantly wrestled with for a while. I have a lot of effeminate tendencies about myself. That’s something that I wasn’t able to admit to myself for a long time. I didn’t like the fact that people already associated effeminacy with homosexuality, and I didn’t want to be looked upon like a stereotype. I also think that the thing that made me hate my feminine characteristics were the fact that, it was those very qualities about myself, that subjected me to physical and verbal abused by the people I had to go to school with…everyday…since I was…show more content…
I’ve done things that they could never do. I’ve faced things that they could never face. I’ve overcome things that they could never overcome. If they dealt with being bullied since they were in the first grade. If they dealt with being isolated by other boys because they didn’t feel comfortable around you. If they dealt with being jumped. And being called a faggot. And wanting to commit suicide. Maybe they would understand how strong we really are. Lawrence King was 13 years old, and didn’t give a fuck what others thought. If he wanted to wear makeup he’d wear makeup…and he was killed for it. He’s a real man. He stood for who he was, and he’s one of my heroes today. It enrages me to know that the fact that I’m a good person, talented, devoted, skilled, intelligent, supportive, and fucking gorgeous is completely overlooked. And I’m drained of all that I’ve faught to gain…and I’m robbed of my manhood…and denied someone to love. Fuck Masculinity. Be a

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