Narrative Essay About A Beautiful World

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Life has been really tough lately. It has been tough all along but recently it has reached new heights I’d never thought it would. I feel lonely, shunned, lost, abandoned, violated, misunderstood, frustrated, confused, rejected, hopeless, and the list just goes on. I don’t even know why I’m writing this diary entry. I’m trying to convince myself that flushing my thoughts onto paper would help me relax, but at this point, I don’t think anything could take me out of this misery. “So wise so young… do never live long”. I think I finally understand what William Shakespeare meant by this quote. For I have always known I was different, but sometimes I like to think that I’m better or wiser than those other arrogant, judgmental, cruel villagers or…show more content…
If there are any others out there like me in the first place. Oh what a fool I was. I used to always wonder and dream about this so called magnificent World State my mother spoke of so highly. I’d spend hours upon days just contemplating and imagining how fulfilling and satisfying life would be there. I used to be so excited when I’d see visitors from the outside world who looked like me and didn’t act like those dirty villagers. And here I am. Just a couple of years later. And I’ve never felt so disgusted. To make matters worse I don’t even have anyone to bond my differences with like Helmholtz and Bernard. They have each to share there thoughts and keep one another entertained in this poisonous world. I’m completely alone. How ironic. Completely alone yet extremely famous. All I ever really wanted was to fit in. Back in the savage reservation, I was willing to sacrifice my body and get whipped just for sake of social acceptance. But again, that didn’t even work. What is left in this world for me? Haven’t I had enough? I was rejected by my father, Bernard, who I thought was my friend, ended up using me for his own fame, and even Lenina, the love of my life, only wants me to satisfy her sexual
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