I Still Love You Essay

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I’m still in love with you. And I know you know, and you know that we’ve been here before. I haven’t put it into words recently; I haven’t really acknowledged that it’s even true. I guess, it’s because I haven’t wanted it to be this way. But this time I’m not scared of it anymore. I am not afraid that something will happen, or that people will judge me, or that people will see me, that you will see me and that you’ll know that after all this time. It’s always been you. But there’s a catch. I’m in love with you, but there’s a catch. There’s something about the way that I love you that isn’t. Ideal. I don’t love us. I don’t love what we had. I don’t even miss it. I’m not still in love with our love. Our interests don’t match, we have nothing in common, you don’t think I’m all that impressive. You don’t stoke my ego. You like things, I like feelings. I want the whole world, you’re fine without it. We don’t see eye to eye, we don’t even entertain our differences. You roll your eyes when I get going and I keep going even though I know you’re not listening but because I want you to give a fuck or something. But, you’re not complicated and neither am I. And. I think that the illusion of this physical world pulled us and stretched us. I scratch my head, and I scratch my neck and I roll back my shoulder and I adjust my shirt. Trying to put the pieces all together. I love you for a lot of reasons but I love you the most because of how insecure you are, because you don’t see all the good stuff that’s inside of you. And that, for some reason, makes you more beautiful than anyone I’ve ever really known. And. In some perverse way, you not liking yourself made me want you more. You deserve that. And, no, not just because you’re you, but because, we all do. It’s easy to ignore how much I love you when I don’t see you, when I don’t hear about how
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