Desolate Beauty Essay

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Desolate Beauty They say that beauty is in the eye of the beholder; in Pueblo’s case that holds true. It has been 8years since Pueblo and I can still remember everything about it. With its mountainous walls that jut from every side, to the sand dunes that rest just on the outskirts of Pueblo. I lived here from 2001-2007. I had moved here in the hopes of finding work to take care of my unborn child. It was a lot tougher than I thought it was going to be. My hope was starting to wane; my thoughts had started to turn inward. I did find salvation but only after a long string of massive mishaps. Because of Pueblo being down in a valley, the temperatures were fairly nice. Very rarely did it get above 75 degrees. And it hardly ever rained; Snow was sometimes a problem though. I remember getting a huge snowfall in June that kept snow on the ground till beginning of October. So it made the homelessness that much harder on me. I had become very depressed during the first few months after my son was born. He was diagnosed as having infant colic, so we barely slept. I already did not really know how to handle the crying/screaming at all hours. So his status just added to my frustration. In March of 2002, my girlfriend at the time took my son and moved back in with her parents. I had still not gotten permanent work. I had gone out to Day Labor to get money for the household bills, but it was not enough for her to stay. The pressure from her very strict Mormon parents was greater than she could bear. After that the spiral began. First I lost my job, then my house, and finally my sanity. Without my son I felt worthless and contemplated suicide on numerous occasions. Before I had acted on it, I sought out help from the Mental Health Facility in Pueblo. While I was getting help with that, the Police had shown up at the facility trying to arrest me, which happened in June of
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