A Dry White Season

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Thinking about a topic for my journal, I stumbled upon a passage in the book “A Dry White Season” I could not get out of my head for days. This passage which you find towards the end of the book (p. 304+305), is about Ben du Toit reflecting on his intentions and motives for helping his (black) friend Gordon Ngubene to gain justice. Ben du Toit, a white history teacher living in South Africa during Apartheid, gets involved in the life of Gordon Ngubene, the black caretaker in his school. Assuming that the imprisonment of Gordon´s son Jonathan was a mistake, he first thought it could be set right with just a few phone calls. Instead, he was dragged deeper and deeper into a corrupt and brutal system he cannot escape. The injustice of what happened to Gordon`s son haunts him until he feels he has no choice but to pursue this case until the end. His African friends, colleges and even his family do not understand his motives and numerous tensions begin to disrupt Ben´s life. Having these experiences in mind, he reflects on his methods of solving the conflict. He wonders if he did something wrong, coming to the conclusion that he never had a chance to win. After having survived an attack by a mob of black children on the streets of Soweto, attacked by the very people he had been trying to help, Ben du Toit`s thoughts are about how the skin colour makes rapprochement even more difficult. As a white person, he can step in for his black friend but he will always stay white. And as a white he has several privileges he cannot provide to them (“Whether I like it or not […] I am white. This is the small, final, terrifying truth of my broken world. I am white. And because I am white I was born in a state of privilege. Even if I fight the system that has reduced us to this I am white, and favoured by the very circumstances I abhor”, p.304). By
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