Reflective Essay On Nursing

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The journey through this module has given me the opportunity to reflect on my ways of being in groups and the impact my actions have on the groups. This course has benefited me by helping me become aware of my strengths in listening and some self-esteem weaknesses by acknowledging these enhances my self-awareness thus allowing for positive development of my professional identity. For me, one of the most significant elements I noticed about how I was in groups was how I acted differently depending on the group size and how over time these differences gradually lessened. At first I knew I took a more of a listener role when I was in larger group rather wanting to first find out what everybody else thought before sharing my ideas (see Appendix A, Johari’s Window). My silent role in the larger group might be because I feel that I am quite self conscious and do not want to be judged negatively or perceived wrong. Psychologist Carl Rogers believes that low self esteem inhibits your “freedom to respond to people the way you would like to” (Bolstad, 2004, p. 33). In smaller groups I am able to openly express myself due to me feeling safer and being able to easier gauge how people are thinking and reacting. In these small groups I take on a co-ordinator role (Benne & Sheats, 1948, cited in Borchers, 1991) by being able to show the group the relationships between ideas. Over time I was able to open up to the larger group and actively made the effort to be more involved in whole group discussions. I think this is explained by getting to know to the group better, feeling comfortable interacting with them and also realising that I would not be negatively judged every time I opened my mouth. This realisation boosted my self esteem and also gave me the confidence to freely respond the way I wanted. However I feel that I need to continually reflect and remind myself that my
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