Jonasz - Berkeley, California
Entered on December 17, 2012
As I get older, my priorities in life are becoming more certain. At the end of the day, I ask myself, “What will I remember at the end of my life?” as I look back upon it. And what I want to do becomes more definitive.
I remember being about eight and finding a fascination in describing the physical world with mathematics. I see life as this single game, where my goals are either won or lost—it’s a challenge that I would like to complete. My grades are part of this challenge. The fact that I’ve never gotten a B is because I have accepted school as a challenge. Grades, for me, have measured how well I have handled that challenge.
As a person I judge someone’s character by their actions - what they do. Furthermore, what they achieve, how they dress, how they socialize. And this is all anybody has to judge who one is. It seems I, along with the world, place importance on these things, because in the end, all I can look back on is what I have done.
I hope to extend particle physics further than anyone else has. That’s what I want to do. I don’t know why. But I know that at the end of my life, I will regret not fulfilling this motivation.
This game that I play throughout my life is defined by an end result—a win or a loss. A win or loss depends on what I play the game for, and this in itself varies amongst individuals.
Last year I was painting ceiling beams outside. And each time I climbed up the ladder I would look in through large, plate-glass windows in front of me and see people talking and working together. And as I was climbing up the ladder I looked down and felt scared that it would fall over. In spite of that, I had to keep on climbing to finish painting those beams. But I also stood above those talking behind the window.
And what I realized from painting those beams is that in order to arrive at great heights I must pull myself up the ladder to get there. This ladder is a...