49 Up Essay

49 Up
Financial security is important for me in my past as well hopefully it will be in my future.   In the past, it was having extra money to buy things such as drums or go to movies or nicer cars.   In my present it is my goal and a means to pay child support, groceries and other necessities.   In the future, I’m sure it will be a whole new meaning after I “find myself” at PHCC.   I actually envision it being like the poem “When I Get Old, I Will Wear Purple”.   Professionalism is not something I enjoy.   I rather enjoy being unprofessional.   I’ve been this way my whole life.   I’ve been written up and almost fired for being a wise-ass.  
As far as marriage goes, it’s up there with professionalism and professional enjoyment.   I thought I’d be married forever and never get a divorce, but doesn’t everyone?   I look forward to being married again someday.   I thought I would be married by 35, but I’m learning to play it by ear.   Life is funny, you go through phases where you give and feel love; not the Hollywood love, now all I want is the “I got your back” kind of love.   I’m 99.9% sure I’ve found that now in my life and I’m grateful for it!
Family is important to me.   When I was 7, I wanted to be a hobo, ride the rails, run away from home with my little hobo sack.   At 14, I wanted to be the drummer for INXS.   At 21, I wanted to be married and have a child.   Now all I want to be a drummer in a little jazz band and live out my days with the man who “had my back”.   So maybe I should start “wearing purple”.  
All of the people in the documentary have all abandoned their families or have moved great distances not to be close to their family ties.   Out of Bruce, Symon, Nick, Neil and Paul, Neil achieved the most.   They all seemed to suffer in more than just one way.   Perhaps, it was the era of sex, drugs and rock-n-roll or deeper issues of abandonment of being left at a boarding school.   Their normalcies were taken away from them at young ages.